Day Eight: The Hands and Feet

I have always considered myself to be a giving and compassionate person. I volunteer when an opportunity arises. I always give the dollar when they ask for a donation in the grocery store. I've been a bell ringer asking for donations.

But as good as that looks, it's not enough. I should be serving God and His people every single day, in some way.

Tonight was Holy Thursday. In the gospel coming from John 13:1-15, the story of Jesus washing the feet of his disciples is told. After he finishes, he leaves his disciples with these words:

He said to them, “Do you realize what I have done for you?
You call me ‘teacher’ and ‘master,’ and rightly so, for indeed I am.
If I, therefore, the master and teacher, have washed your feet, 
you ought to wash one another’s feet.
I have given you a model to follow, 
so that as I have done for you, you should also do.” (John 13:12-15)

Is anyone else's mind just completely blown? Our God. Our Lord. Our Savior. Our everything. He humbled himself enough to lower himself and wash the feet of his twelve disciples. Can you imagine doing such a thing? I have no position of power. I am not a leader of anything.  I am nothing compared to Jesus Christ and thinking about washing another's feet freaked me out and sparked a mini panic attack. Really, Colleen? Really?

Now of course, that was me taking it in the literal sense. Jesus was telling his disciples to go out, humble themselves, and serve others as he had humbled and served them. There are so many ways I can do this in my life, many of which I won't even know about until the moment comes.

I love leading. I love being in control and in charge of everything. Things in AGD, group projects, heck, even family vacations (I held a "mandatory" Spanish phrase teaching session for my family in the limo on the way to the airport before we flew off to Mexico. What does that tell you?) I am so attached to having that control. I control whatever I can. I need to be a follower of God now. I need to let Him do the leading. I need to learn how to put myself in the position of a follower. I need to learn to listen to instructions. It's a work in progress, but I'll get there. I've been told many times before that I intimidate people. How horrible is that! I don't want to be perceived in that way! I want people to be able to come to me with anything. By letting that controlling pride in me go, I can become that person.

In the coming fall, I don't want to take on anymore leadership roles. Will I help with Titan Catholic getting started up? Absolutely. But I just want to get it going and then let God take over. If He leads through me, fine. With everything else though, no thank you. No exec board in Law Society. No position in APO. I'm just going to be one in the crowd. I'm going to learn how to be a sheep in the flock following my Sheperd.

By truly humbling myself, I can become the hands and feet of the Lord. I can do the dirty work. I can wash the feet of His people. It is so important that I learn to serve as He did and humble myself as He did.

I ask for your prayers as I continue to work on this. Thanks for your support in reading. =]